Monday, March 27, 2006

HELLO!! How exciting i have a new blog look :) Let me know what you think!! (if you like it better or think i should change it back!) SOOO.. after i really crap week and only a 300gram loss from last Monday i turned it around with a 2 KGS loss this Monday!! Woohoo!! Alot of people said to me this week'gee your looking heaps thinner!!' and i waslike 'nah only lost 300 grams :(' but i guess i WAS looking thinner :) Yay!! So i had a totall breakdown over KFC this week, so ridiculous i know :) Im not sure it was entirely over KFC but basically heres the story: So after a small loss i normally find i eat some crap coz im an idiot, so on Saturday my family was gettin KFC and i was like 'im gonna have KFC and not feel bad about it!' So anyway me n my nephew r driving to get it and im all like beating myself up in my head about it 'you dont need it, you dont even really feellike it, this is going to just take you back to where you were and you only just got back on your feet!' etc etc. so i get there n i order (Lrg zinger works burger combo with sml gravy for me) and while im waiting for the food i thought about what Diminishing on the WW msg boards always says when she is feeling tempted to 'project yourself to weigh in day and how you would feel and do you still want it?' And iknow i felt like crap all week from my prev sml loss so i knew it would only escalate next week.. not to mention it was TTOM so i was HYPER sensitive.. so anyway heres me beating myself up on the way home and i look over and i had askedmy nephew to hold the bag but he didnt & it had spilled out on the floor and my burger was coming unwrapped and i lost it i snapped at him, then i felt really bad coz its not his fault so i spologised he wasnt fazed, anyway i felt REALLY bad then and started to tear up when i got home i said to my sister 'you can have mine ive changed mymine i dont want it' shes like 'why???' and i started to bawl, i felt SOOOOO stupid, it was a combination of TTOM & snapping at my nephew & FINALLY saying NO to KFC even tho it was right there n i had already bought it (the ultimate temptation) so anyway she must have thought i was crazy but i had lean cuisine instead and felt a little better. Yeah i know i sound like a CRAZY BIATCH but i couldnt help it since ive been losing weight im becoming a major cry baby, thinkin i should maybe see a counsellor so i understand why i react like this over small stuff, i hear its normal tho (fingers crossed!!) So anyway needless to say i was THRILLED today when i lost 2kgs and i KNEW that saying no to that KFC was soooo worth it :) Now that your all drooling ill move on, went roller skating again Friday took my neice and nephew and taught my nephew how toskate (i think picking his 36kg body of the grown a million times really worked my arms hehe) i love roller skating its so fun!! For my 10% i was gonna buy some roller skates well guess what?? Im only 400grams away!! So guess it will be soon!! Im really hoping i can hit a normal weightloss next week and not have a tiny one (and def not a gain eek!!) because im a bit worried with the big loss this week. Any tips? I know i know track your points :) My next goal was 20kgs by my birthday (8th June) so i think thats is totally manageable! Heres wishing me luck!! This weeks goal is NOOOOO takeaway!!! Thats every weeks goal :) Thanks for listening :) Hope you dont charge my the word!! Fliss xx

Posted by Fliss :: 10:00 pm :: 2 Comments:

Post a Comment

---------------------------------------